Question 17: If we lived for hundreds of years, and even the very elderly were youthful and healthy, would you prefer to have an older partner who is world-wise and experienced, or a younger partner who is more naive and inexperienced?
If you believe in an afterlife or some kind of reincarnation scenario, I swear I am an old soul. That might sound pretentious or whatever, but it is how I truly feel. Since I was in elementary school, I filled the “good aunt” niche: I listened to someone’s problems, ran a diagnostic, and offered successful resolutions. I also had a crush on the same boy from second to fifth grade — a truly dedicated and serious romantic, I was. I self-analyzed myself, even back then. Overall, I may not transmit my self-awareness in a public setting, but I have always had a silent but secure grasp on it. If I acted contradictory or manipulative (because, guess what, sometimes I did), I already knew it, no matter how ignorant I acted on the outside.
After graduating high school and starting college, I felt less like the girl I knew for 18 years and more like a sponge in a transitional state. A sponge ready to absorb new experiences; a piece of clay ready to mold and bend. Since graduating college just a few months ago, my personality surprises me in many ways. Instead of feeling like a blank slate of sorts, I really want to experience life differently. It feels like I fulfilled my time as the “good aunt,” and enduring a rootless personality was not too much fun, so while I do not want to jump off the deep end, I do want to take a few risks and get my hands dirty. I do not want to let fear or restrictions or expectations stop me from really seeing the world in a new and truer light.
I want to, in a way, become a young soul. Nevertheless, like any young and naive soul, there is great potential for making mistakes you may regret but cannot take back. These mistakes sometimes bear great personal transformation; other times, they haunt you or eventually deteriorate you.
At this point in my young life, I would choose to follow a world-wise guide instead of being one. I would choose to reinvent how I view the world in order to see it anew — and I would value having someone who has already done this to help me out.
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